end of an era....?

A couple of months ago I came into a lump of money, not a vast fortune. I found myself with a couple of grand "cashmoneyspend" I had cleared out an area of my life which gave me a comfy wad of dosh, and it was mine! The house-hold budget manages itself I had recently become that person who in a few months is about to be a father again, which is lovely, BUT! But it hit me, mortality, evolution, growing old, a completely new sense of self. I thought I was content with my lot, the been there, done it!, got the tea-shirt!, experienced highs and lows of life, an anarchic tapestry, woven into my very being. financially stable ish, not loaded, just about able to not go to far into each months overdraft.

Thought I was content with my long-term relationship and I am, except for one teeny-weeny bit, bedroom antics have all but grinded to a halt, the past few years, baby-making sessions. Oh the same old story I guess for most punters, with the exception that this is Mine., There will always be similarities and there will be difference.
Now I would never have thought that I would ever succumb to paying for it. I suppose I was under some grandiose illusion that I would never have to, never had to, why start now.

Anyway I decided, for the sake of sanity I need to get some needs met. I gave it lots of consideration and explored avenues. Dipped into the "contact/swinger" scene, the odds where stacked against me right from the offset, No photo, not single, I think the expression used was a "cheater". I get the impression that most of the adds are placed by the site hosts and the others looking for Mr Right, not Mr Right Now!
If I had marketed myself better and put up a pic or 2 who knows? Discovery not an option! Cheating?? Good question, from my perspective not. I was not looking to give my heart and soul away or leave my home, apart from the sex I am very happy. Anonymous, uncomplicated, outrageous sex with strangers was the order of the day, a mutual exchange of lust.
Naturally an affair was not an option. I dont have the time to go to clubs and pubs and cruise, besides too much hassle and also discovery and or breaking someones heart by leading them on, not my style, but us blokes have a knack for saying things we may not mean, when we get a little hot and bothered down below. (OK speaking for myself here, didnt mean to drag the whole male race down to my level)
Porn? "www.justhowmuchporncanonemandownload.com" I guess that answers that!

So I made a decision to visit escorts 10th of November I began my journey. What a feeling not what I expected, my whole preconceived ideas of what the sex industry was about where blown away. And I have had some involvement over the years in various different roles.

Last night marked the end of an era for me, with a fantastic exploit with a delightful lady, who gave me the best of both worlds, the ever functional, dependable GFE crossed over to Hardcore Dominatrix and back and forth all night till I didnt know if I was coming or going. That was the last of a lump of money that, had its own unique purpose. I am a man of morals (albeit little ones lol) and I wont use money that I am in partnership with to indulge my hobby.
So I have had some fantastic experiences, met some lovely women, so until a relative dies, non on the horizon, or I win the lottery.

So is it an end of an era???

or back to the drawing board.

Damm those lists of things I want to do before I die.

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